||[Feb. 26th, 2005|10:10 am]
After a rough week of drama, I finally feel like life might be getting a little better. However, hope this is not another one of those times when I think life is getting better, and I'm just disappointed in the end. As I get older and older, I'm beginning to wonder...will my life ever be what I want it to be?|
Lately I've had a whole lot of anxiety about graduating next year and trying to find a job. The fact is, I kind of screwed myself over with working crappy jobs and not doing internships. However, I don't feel like that is entirely my fault, especially since a whole lot of internships are unpaid. Yes, I do feel like the experience is well worth not getting paid, but I have to survive and money is the means to do that. Anyhow, I tried to look up advertising jobs the other day on a job webpage just to see what I should expected after graduating. It was very depressing, to say the least. It turns out that the only kind of jobs I am qualified for are jobs requiring only an associates degree (if even that). The other jobs that I was not qualified for required at least 5-10 years of experience in the field. So yes, it looks like I have a bright future in telemarketing and the like. That's definitely soothing.
The upside of life is that I will soon have a place of my own. My younger brother, Daniel, wants to move to Austin next semester, so we plan on getting a place together. I feel like this will not only be a great move for Daniel, it will be a great move for me as well. Daniel needs to get away from all things high school to help him grow up a little bit. Plus, sometimes it's very good for you to get away from your comfort zone and take some risks. The good thing about Daniel is that he is very laid back, low stress, low maintenance, and he's really fun to hang out with. Plus, he's a good listener when it comes to me venting. So right now, I am looking for a nice place for us to rent out. Hopefully not too ghetto, but nice & afforable. I don't want to get sucked in to paying extremely high rent every month like I did when I lived in Hyde Park. But I don't want to live in a dump either. So if anyone knows of any good places, let me know. =)
After my little visit to Chicago last weekend, I feel like I am ready for Oscar to come back. I had such a great time with him. With Oscar, I don't feel akward being silent and I don't feel like I have to put on any kind of act. I can just be me. And I like the fact that we're both so comfortable with each other that we can do or say anything. Plus, it's nice to feel like there's someone you love that loves you back. =)